I don’t understand why my brain thinks the way it does..

I always pick stupid people to like…

I mean they either turn out to be douche bags or weirdos or just down right creeps.

Well actually this time the person i like isn’t stupid…and i have liked him for a really long time….the thing is, he has a girl friend…and i think that they really like each other..a lot.

I want to stop liking him because i know that it isn’t right…but i can’t…it’s weird..

He’s a really great guy and he has always been there for me whenever i needed someone to talk to.

But we haven’t been as close as we used to be lately..do you think that’s like a sign? Like telling me it’s time to just stop?

To stop liking him. Stop feeling this way. Just to stop.

Because it is getting hard to be around him knowing that i am ruining/have ruined our friendship all because of these stupid feelings that i can’t seem to control.

I just don’t know what to do…

And if he ends up reading this, this is what i have to say: I’m sorry about this post, i’m sorry that everything is so screwed up, and i’m sorry that i ruined our friendship….i didn’t try..it’s not my fault..and i’m sorry.

But tumblr is where i go to post how i feel and that is exactly what i am doing. 

That is all.